Dating...Am I ready?
Most days I think NO.
Its not an issue of having my emotions tied to another...its an issue of having my emotions tied up to the uncertainty of where my little world is going to end up.
New and budding relationships seem to be abound this Spring. Several bloggers I follow have been hit with the love bug or at least the I am really feeling ya bug. Reading their post and Twitter Tweets really warms my heart. It is comforting to know that romance is still alive. I wish all of them the best and hope their expectations are met beyond their imaginations.
Of course all of this reading on the new and exciting romances makes me look inward.
The analytical personality emerges reminding me to keep focus on the important life issues. That I do not have the energy or time for such nonsense. Plus looking at my track record the odds are playing against me. The mental dialogue continues in such a fashion, always ending in the same. Embrace being the old cat lady, Embrace It!
Yet!
The hopeful romantic peeks through on occasion.
The yearning of hugs that envelope you sending a current of understanding and caring to every fiber of your being. The knowledge that someone is in your corner with encouraging words that are heartfelt. The gift of laughter when all seems darkest. Freedom to vent with the understanding that's all it is venting, no quick fixes or lectures needed.
I have been told that what I seek to give and seek to receive is non existent. Probably true and mathematically the odds are not in my favor.
Yet it can exists for a rare few. I witnessed the most beautiful relationship of all time, my parents. So I know it is possible, just does not happen often.
Time to get my head out of the clouds as daydreaming is not productive.
On to the continued job hunt and today will be a day to slash expenses even more, though they are at a minimum. Thinking its TV or cell phones...one has to go.
Future Cat Lady...meow :)
4 comments:
You'll know when you're ready, Laura...and it'll happen when you least expect it to (at least that's what happened to me).
Continued luck on the job hunt. It'll all come together. Just think positive and positive things will happen.
:-)
No offense to the comment above intended, but if I had a dime for every time someone said that to me I'd be rich! That said, its true! I met someone a few months ago when I was not looking at all. But we haven't MET in person yet....that's next. Long distance is one thing...ya know?
I feel like we have so much in common. I am turning off a cell phone tomorrow. I also have begun to accept that I may be a cat lady.
(you may want to fix your typo, even though its kinda cute...I think you meant corner not coroner :)
I do think love is out there for you and will show up at the right time.
Great catch Barbara thanks...laughed out loud when I read my mistake and your find. Spelling has always been my downfall.
Barbara I wish you the best on your new relationship, keep your eyes wide open sister yet still enjoying. There is nothing better than the beginning stages of new romance.
Canadian Bald Guy, I have so enjoyed reading your and Sunshine's blogs. The openness of your words regarding the reconnection has warmed my heart. I am happy for both of you.
Hey if it happens for me then it does if not that's okay as well. I know a lot of the problem is my intolerance and that is due to my life experiences and age. My expectations are simple to a degree...manners, affection and do not I repeat do not tell me how I am parenting incorrectly lol.
I just found your blog today and I've been reading through it. You seem like such a sweet person, you totally deserve to live happily ever after. I'm gunning for you! :)
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