My door mat says it all, so beware of the following.An absent blogger is what I have been. Why? My mind is consumed with only a few items.
Money
Job
Housing
Money
I sit here high atop my pity pot contemplating the life that was dealt. Questioning myself of decisions made or not made. A near panic is arising of the unknown. Trying to formulate a plan B, C and even D, yet nothing comes to together.
I know and remind myself daily...others are in a worse situation...but by God this is my situation and this is the one I am having to deal with. The one that floats above my head as I try to sleep and the one that smacks me across the cheek as I arise to meet the day.
Failure is all consuming and when basic necessities are a struggle the mom failure emotion creeps in.
Something has to give...where is that light at the end of the tunnel?
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My boss mentioned again the he is thinking of hiring someone this summer. He just won't commit to a set time.
He will be looking for someone who is intelligent, friendly, has accounting experience, and understands how software works. All assets I know you have. If, god forbid, you are still looking when he starts his search I will let you know and tutor you on what responses you should give when he interviews you, if you're interested that is.
Thanks Dave and yes if I am still jobless I would be interested.
Laura, your pity pot problems are very valid reasons to be consumed with concern. I just joined you in needing a job so that's on my list too. Please don't think of yourself as a failure in any way, especially as a mom. Do you love your kids? Do you do your best as a parent? If you're a failure that means I am too and I just can't go there. I see SO CLEARLY the mistakes I have made but I also know I made them in love.
I hope we both get good jobs that pay us more than we ever imagined and that we LIKE.
Hi Laura: Sorry I haven't been around for awhile, and really sorry you are having a tough go of things - "The Wine" thing is perfect - It's hard not to vent frustration about things that are out of you're control and you can't seem to fix them. I hope that things get better for you soon - BTW I INVENTED WHINING :-}
~Bill~
I'm looking for the light too.
Some days it's hard to have any desire to keep looking.
But, we do. We do it for our children, and for ourselves.
I hope you find yours soon.
<3
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