Do I Know YOU?!?!?

Dear Mr. Forest Green Jeep Man,

I wanted to thank you for the fanatic wave’s yesterday afternoon. Upon the first wave I assumed it was just the customary thank you wave for allowing a merge in traffic thus giving you the ability to cut in front of me. Ill-mannered? Yes I was in not returning said thank you wave. Here and now I extend an apology for my slight in behavior.

Now, on to the additional waves, flashing hazard lights and fast repetition of the left turn signal down three different streets as I followed you only by coincidence. A mixed bag of emotions filled the interior of my little car. Bewilderment, curiosity, creepiness, fear and even stupidity.

Do I know this person?

Is something wrong with my car?

Is that the sign to pull over?

Who is this?

Is this person a neighbor?

Should I know this person?

I must admit there was some relief when I pulled into my development and you continued on. I had determined there were only two options after the drive down three streets behind a determined waver. Complete embarrassment because I should have recognized you, regardless of the fact that I do not know an individual that drives a Forest Green Jeep. Or I would end up in a wood chopper.

So for future reference one wave is all that is needed. If I do not return the wave please take no offense it’s just how I roll.

Sincerely,

Faded Sliver Saturn

A Thursday Photo

Same thoughts running through my mind so I went on a tour of my blog and past blog. Trying to find something to post about. Nothing from the past blog seemed worthy to re-post.

On to Flickr!

After changing permission on some photos and deleting a few, I came across this...

I believe she is the Scarecrow and the dog is Dorothy...

Brought happy thoughts to my mind :)

A Girlie Good Time

Little M and I went to a Mary Kay sales party last night. I had no plans on buying any thing but did jump at the opportunity for her an I to do something that was strictly girl stuff.

A great time was had!

Little M ate up the attention and the chance to use all of the makeup. I was amazed and extremely proud of her. Her interaction with the adults made my heart swell as did the realization of her growing up and coming into her own.

I was going to take pictures of Little M as she was applying the different products but decided that it might be a distraction to the others.

So we snapped a few in the car.

Most of the shots were of M making faces...loves to roll her eyes :)

Have to say the products were alright but then I am pretty stuck on the products I use (which are very few). I swear by Enfuselle C+E Repair moisturizer...skin is like silk.

So a Girlie Good Time was had...another cork in the bowl :)

Sitting Around Can Lead To Over Thinking

Dating...

Am I ready?

Most days I think NO.

Its not an issue of having my emotions tied to another...its an issue of having my emotions tied up to the uncertainty of where my little world is going to end up.

New and budding relationships seem to be abound this Spring. Several bloggers I follow have been hit with the love bug or at least the I am really feeling ya bug. Reading their post and Twitter Tweets really warms my heart. It is comforting to know that romance is still alive. I wish all of them the best and hope their expectations are met beyond their imaginations.

Of course all of this reading on the new and exciting romances makes me look inward.

The analytical personality emerges reminding me to keep focus on the important life issues. That I do not have the energy or time for such nonsense. Plus looking at my track record the odds are playing against me. The mental dialogue continues in such a fashion, always ending in the same. Embrace being the old cat lady, Embrace It!

Yet!

The hopeful romantic peeks through on occasion.

The yearning of hugs that envelope you sending a current of understanding and caring to every fiber of your being. The knowledge that someone is in your corner with encouraging words that are heartfelt. The gift of laughter when all seems darkest. Freedom to vent with the understanding that's all it is venting, no quick fixes or lectures needed.

I have been told that what I seek to give and seek to receive is non existent. Probably true and mathematically the odds are not in my favor.

Yet it can exists for a rare few. I witnessed the most beautiful relationship of all time, my parents. So I know it is possible, just does not happen often.

Time to get my head out of the clouds as daydreaming is not productive.

On to the continued job hunt and today will be a day to slash expenses even more, though they are at a minimum. Thinking its TV or cell phones...one has to go.

Future Cat Lady...meow :)

Thats My Baby

The semi annual chorus performance was last night. The chorus part gets parents to the PTA meetings. Little M enjoyed herself to the fullest and she nailed the one line she had...cha chaaaa!

Moments

I seem to have a habit ..hording the corks from wine I have consumed.

As I tossed one in the bowl the other day the sight of corks piled atop each other made me think.

The thought of how each cork represents those little moments that are happy. How I must capture those moments and savor them. The overwhelming fear and uncertainty can consume you (me) yet I try each day to hold it at bay.

My Little Big Man H is a true anchor. He has the ability at 13 to cut to the bottom line and see some humor in the situation. There is not a day that goes by that he has not brought laughter to my voice.

My Little M the Diva in the making always brings a smile to my face whether it is a quick text message just to say I love you or hearing her sing as she is caught up in her own little world.

My Serious Man Child that always checks in on me just to make sure I am okay and tells me daily that I am in his prayers.

It is these three that keep me going and it is these three that have helped me fill the bowl with moments worth capturing.

Wine a Little

My door mat says it all, so beware of the following.

An absent blogger is what I have been. Why? My mind is consumed with only a few items.

Money
Job
Housing
Money

I sit here high atop my pity pot contemplating the life that was dealt. Questioning myself of decisions made or not made. A near panic is arising of the unknown. Trying to formulate a plan B, C and even D, yet nothing comes to together.

I know and remind myself daily...others are in a worse situation...but by God this is my situation and this is the one I am having to deal with. The one that floats above my head as I try to sleep and the one that smacks me across the cheek as I arise to meet the day.

Failure is all consuming and when basic necessities are a struggle the mom failure emotion creeps in.

Something has to give...where is that light at the end of the tunnel?

1:30 AM

Woke to a loud growling/groaning sound. And it was in My Room!

Shaking my head trying to clear the fog. A squinting glance at the clock it is 1:30 AM.

What hell is that sound. Do I call the police, Ghost Hunters or yell for Little H.

It can't be one of the animals.

Okay head count...one dog, yep Spike Lee is laying at the end of the bed (with his favorite chicken)...cat number one, alright Fritz is laying at my head...another cat sitting on the foot board. WHAT!!! the cat on the foot board has been missing for over five day!


"IZZY Where in the world did you come from!"

The noise what is that noise...okay cat number three, Midge in under the bed making some extremely creepy noises.


Shaking my head once again. I say Izzy's name and he bounds over the bed to me. Alright this is my cat, the one that snuck out of the house and has not been seen since Thursday afternoon.

The creepy factor really crept in. How is this cat in the house?!?!?!?

1:37 AM I am pounding on H's door

(Me)Wake up, Wake up!

I get a mumbled response and he finally opens the door.

(Me)Have you gone outside since I went to sleep



(H)No why?



(Me)Look down.


And there is Izzy doing figure 8's thru my legs.

H is just as shocked and perplex as I am.

I rush downstairs and all doors are locked...WTH

H suggest that maybe he has been in the house all along.

In a screechy high pitch voice I reply.

"That is not possible! It is only 1000 square feet and I have searched the house and he was never around for feedings!"

As I try to force rational thoughts into my mind I go over WHO has a key.

Alright T the oldest and S-man (waiting for him to get his furniture 4 weeks post break up...that's another story) have a key. Someone playing a mean trick...no not possible! S-man would not do such a thing, T could care less about the cats and I am MOM he wouldn't.

Clam rational thoughts old woman!

MySpace! T might have stopped by after his midnight shift and used the computer.

A text is issued.

(Me)Did you stop by the house after work?

A response of...(T) Ya Why?

I called T

(Me)When you came in did Izzy come in with you?

(T)NO, but when I was on the computer I heard a cat and look out the window and there was one of the cats so I let him in.

Whewwwwwww

So order has been restored! Well almost.


Fritz could care less he is pretty much about sleep, food and me. He has the fabulous ability to ignore everything else.



Midge is still in cat turmoil...Growling and hiding...she is either pissed that he is back or thinks he is a new cat.



Izzy the "runaway" has not let my side. This once pissy cat is all about loving and being no more than 2 feet away.

My Little Blue Eyed Lion is Home!

Prissy TomBoy

A skirt and flip flops do not make for safe skateboarding.

She truly is Sugar and Spice

Need Some Help! Please!

I need some help, all it will cost is a comment!

The beautiful woman above is getting married and asked me (yup me) to help her with the music. Specifically, songs for the reception.

WTH! I don't think I am the person to ask!

I am not a firm believer in marriage or relationships for that matter. I don't have a great out come with dating and such. Seeing as I have just come out of a once again failed relationship, I don't think I am in the love song mode.

So far I am thinking

Evanescence – Call Me When You're Sober
Pink – Just like a pill
Alanis Morissette – You Oughta Know

My favorite love song is

Dave Matthews Band - When The World Ends...You tuckle up yourself with me...love that line, but I don't think it is really a song for a wedding. This line kind of takes it out of the running...Your legs won't work cause you want me so, You just lie spread to the wall...Have to say if you have not heard the song check it out...sexiest song around!

There is the old stand by of Etta James – At Last, but thinking it has been overdone.

So that is why I am asking for help.

Please leave a comment or give me a tweet of songs that would be appropriate.

The bride to be, G and myself shall be hanging out tonight trying to be original and creative in song choice but your help is desperately needed.

Wine, two old women that have been there done that and an excited bride...what a combo!

HELP